Life, it's a movie with unpredictable scenes.

2010-03-09T14:44:00.000+08:00

All i ever asked was for you to be with me always.
Never have i asked for anything else.
Cause all i ever wanted is you.
I love you, wati.

Why im lost in Windows and Re-installed Linux

2009-12-22T22:30:00.004+08:00

Cause i miss these features! And the video below is my desktop with Ubuntu 9.10.
Previously before installing windows 7, i was using Fedora on my notebook and OpenSuse on my Desktop.

Support Open Source Software. Linux is a great and reliable Operating System. Used it for years, both Desktop and Server.

**for those who says open source sucks. Don't use Firefox on your PC. Firefox is open source software too. It's licensed under Creative Commons Attribution Share-Alike License.

fuck it

2009-12-22T19:05:00.001+08:00

.

Sometimes i just wish im dead.
My life seems meaningless.

.

2009-12-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Cant u see im sick?
I can barely even walk properly.
And im shivering like a drig addict.
Do u even care??

just another day

2009-12-21T19:07:00.000+08:00

I miss my S.
And my RX's body is gold(arghh not nice!)
And i'm lost using Windows (im a linux user)
And i feel so alone.

Ouch

2009-12-15T19:47:00.001+08:00

A river.
So red so juicy.
Dripping like a waterfall.
Ouch.

My leg still hurts from that fall!!
Especially when it gets wet!

And sue, i cant help it but to say im sorry.
Although u didnt blame me.

Just a Dream

2009-12-06T16:33:00.001+08:00

lookin back
how one problem leads to another
and suddenly came another
....and another.

i hate you.
yes i do.
fuck off.
outta my life.

With so many things on my mind.
It feels like walkin on a rope
I need that circus net
To break my fall if i do.

At times
Suicidal i'll get
At times
I feel so useless.

My perfect life started ruining eversince Darina
EVERYTHING that i had.
Maybe i'll wake up and realise that this is all just a dream.

a friend : segala apa yg terjadi hanya dengan izin yang maha kuasa, berdoalah padanya.

Perfect

2009-12-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

Lyrics of the song 'Perfect' by Simple Plan

Hey Dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according

To plan?

Do you think I'm wasting

My time doing things I

Wanna do?

But it hurts when you

Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good

Enough for you

I can't pretend that

I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be

My hero?

All the days

You spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't

Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good

Enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing' alright

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Nothing's gonna change

The things that you said

Nothing's gonna make this

Right again

Please don't turn your back

I can't believe it's hard

Just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be Perfect

Sorry

2009-11-29T15:37:00.001+08:00

I'm so sorry.
That i had to rush to close our conversation.
Hope u understand. Don't be so mad ya friend.

And for my bro Ko-Z, u sure about opening up D.A.J.A.L?
And i need my portfolio back. Glad that u found it.

And as for Pinkie, wonder how's life in prison. January gonna be out.
So please change yourself.

And AJ, i know it's been weeks since your death, May you rest in peace. Innalillah.

To all my friends, take good care of yourself and the ones around you. You'll never know when
they will leave you. Don't take things for granted.

And CN, muackss :)

To That irritant

2009-11-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

Here's dedicated to that irritant.
Now that you got no hopes left to see me.
Or even have a decent chat with me.

Lets tell ya this :

hahaha.

Drenched

2009-11-23T22:22:00.001+08:00

As the days passed
A new season arrived
And it rained and rained
And get us drenched.

I'm gettin sick.

2008-08-20T08:03:00.002+08:00

I haven't been sleepin' lately
My body is tired, but i just can't seem to sleep
The voices in my ear, still scary
still haunting me

Closed my eyes just to hear
It's your stupid birthday
Closed my eyes just to hear
It's your stupid birthday

i know its my fault, its me
'cause i shouldn't have put in any hope
i shouldn't have expected anythin'
but all i wanted was to spend time with you

Closed my eyes just to hear
Go home i wont see you
Closed my eyes just to hear
Go home i wont see you

i know my stupid birthday's over,
But at least spend some time with me,
At least on the phone, my dear
Or just sit down with me,
maybe at least just half an hour.

Maybe it's just me
Maybe i've done too many wrongs
But if i do i'm sorry
i apologize but at least do tell me

Said you on the sixteen
I got somethin for you
I think you know it (What, i still cant imagine)
Tomorrow i'll give it to you

Closed my eyes just to hear
It's your stupid birthday
Closed mt eyes just to hear
Go home i wont see you

STUPID 17 AUGUST

2008-08-18T10:38:00.002+08:00

After long asleep, here's the revive of my blog.

STUPID 17 AUGUST

The day before
Such a beautiful surprise
And now he walked out the door
Hopin today the 17 will be full of smiles

He sat at the usual spot
He looked up the sky
He looked forward for this day
Hopin' for at least a kiss
He loves her a lot

The phone rang
he spoke and a reply
she spoke and a reply
a reply and an end

Silence.

The smile that was etched
was erased away from his face
The eyes full of hope
Now filled with tears

Voices around
It's your stupid birthday
Voices around
It's your stupid birthday

He sat there
side head on the wall
He closed his eyes

Silence.

He smiled as he touched her cheek
He smiled as he smelled her scent
He asked why did she kept quiet
He was about to kiss her cheek
He turned and realized
He was talking to the wall.

A voice spoke
"Sayaang"

He wipe off his tears
His lips turned into a smile
He ran to search for her
And he stopped

Tears.

It was just an imagination
An imagination that seemed so real

It started to rain
The rain gets heavy
He sat there, under the rain
He got no appetite though he was hungry

Tears

Don't even talk about a kiss
All he's askin for is,
just to spend time with her
Even if its just 10 minutes

He screamed his lungs
He can't stop cryin
And a message tone,
It was his phone

Go home.
I wont see you.
Voices echo in his head.
I wont see you
Go home
I wont see you
I'm just laZy
go home.

Silence.

Like a smashed glass
Like a broken mirror
Like that fragile balloon that burst
His heart was shattered

I'm okay (i'm actually not)
I'm smiling (i'm pretending)
I'm feelin' better (i'm still sad)
I didn't talk much (i'm not over it)

Tears

I'm only askin for one
just to spend time with you
17 is over, at least some time soon
I'm beggin' you
please. at least grant me this wish.
My stupid birthday wish.

An hour A Lie

2007-04-04T04:37:00.000+08:00

Time passed by quickly
So quickly that u don't even realise
As the hours ticked silently
On the circle ,where an hour is like a lie

It sets you thinkin
Why time flies like flash
That an hour feels like fifteen(minutes)
Or an hour is just a lie

A Lie , it wont wait for you
A Lie , it shall trick you when u're havin fun
A Lie , it will suddenly appear as minutes
A Lie , it's all a lie

As the days bored it gets
An hour shall it lie
It wont fail to have its' effect
On you that it feels one like five

A Lie , it moves slowly as u're bored
A Lie , Look at ur watch only a minute have passed
A Lie , an hour like five its odd
A Lie , Fuck the time the clock, blast!

An hour it can be like minutes
An hour it can be like hours

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Shit.

The crave

2007-03-22T03:40:00.001+08:00

Eyes shut
Doors opened bleed and pumped
It was his heart
Almost shattered but stayed strong

He clenched his fists
His heart frozen
Ice cold it freeze
No emotions shall there be

The rise of the devil inside
The crave for blood grew stronger
Hatred as the lies they lied
No more can he take this longer

A sinister laughter
A feeling of satisfaction
After a kill of another hamster
With the flames that ignite from his lighter

He longed for flesh
A young girl's blood

Screams From The Inside

2007-02-06T12:02:00.000+08:00

He shut his eyes
Thoughts raced through his mind
Remembering all those stabs and the lies
Problems in a bottle, cork remained unwind

Looked up
He saw the stars and gazed
Tears rolled remembered the days
Fists clenched
He opened his eyes
Scream

Fists unclenched
He grabs his hair
Pulls
And even louder
Scream!!!!

AAARRRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shut ur thoughts are you givin up!?
Be strong are you gonna let em win!?
Think back what they've done are u gonna give in!?

Show no sympathy show no mercy
Never to trust someone fully
Others' sufferingz shall be your victory
And their blood shall be your reward

He looked down on the floor
Eyes shut
He smiled

Die motherfuckers

He lauged
why do all these have to happen
Tears rolled down
He laughed

Before Its Too Late

2007-02-02T02:12:00.000+08:00

Sometymes We Just Dont Realise Until It's Too Late..

How Much Our Friends Meant To us..

But We Thoughts Just Ran thru our Head Like Moving Pictures Playin in Our Heads...

How we wish that we could Tell Them...

How Much They Meant To Us

How Much we Love Them and How Much We Want to Apologize

For All The Tymes We hurt em And Make Em Frust

For How Much We Made Them Lost Trust in Us

Taken from the owner's diary
Actually written in year 2005

Eversince We Touched

2007-01-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

Whispers...

He thought he heard it
it came again, both his ears
he shut his eyes
he thought he could forget it all
But no
He can't

Starin blank into space
A thought uncertain
A feeling unknown

Walked down memory lane
The first time they touched
It was great
He always had that
A long brown stick
Protected by that outer layer
He always had that

Wherever they went
always together
Like no person could seperate them
not before not now or even in the future
They were meant for each other

Unexpected
A day came and that day they part
A move unthinkable
The moments they touched
all seems wasted

Silence.

I still care.
Still want you
I still must have you
Still want to touch you

With my long brown stick,
covered with that nice outer layer,

the pencil...

i still need you PAPER !!!

Credits :

A joint-idea
Dayani Smurfie
and the author

Untitled

2007-01-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

A smile he laughed out loud
A reason uncertain
A weird emotion
A thought unknown
And he closes the curtain

A dark room
A shadow a friend
He talks by himself

The first whisper
An atmosphere that speaks
The air that surrounds
The nothing that produce sounds
that whisper that came from nothing around

Silence

Depressed..
Tears almost rolled down
He closed his eyes

silence

He laughed
Like as if he never did
He laughed as loud as he can
but in the end
he cried for help
and turned to him
a shadow a friend

He saw a river
A river so red
flowing down
it drips
From his hand

Blood...

He laughed
And smiled.

Happy Birthday

2006-12-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

Silence
The wind whispers and the night cold
As the beats inside gets quicker
The rain stops and again
Silence

Trapped behind the walls
He walked down memory lane
He missed her
Tears rolled down

Now wipe them tears
She might come back one day
No she wont
Heartbeat increases

Up till now he still cant forget her
Whatever happens
Still cant forget her
Why is she now gone from his sight

He can't see where he's walking on the bright pathway
He got lost as if it were dark
Why cant he see the light
Why isn't she there anymore

You used to love me
You used to care
Why have u changed
Now u drifted away from me

For all the wrong that i've done
Forgive me
For all the pain i might had caused
Forgive me

Please come back
He Begged
Please come back
He begged

Please come back!!!!

The four walls that surrounds
Them the only ones which understands
Y cant u just come back to me
I miss u so
The thousand knives stabbed his heart
A pain unbearable
A pain that is too much for him

Tell me u still love me
Tell me u still do
Tell me u still care
Cause i still do

[ Happy 17th Birthday ]
[ 7 December ]

Just A Line

2006-12-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

i wrote this chapter in my head
Meant for u but in your book i'm dead
Everything i wished to say remained unsaid
You just left instead

I'm nothing more than a line in your book
A mere sentence with no relevance to anyone
A word or phrase unnoticed by anyone who looked
A character not important for everyone

You've changed the storyline
And i'm just that previous idea scribbled down
A main character
In an exciting happy story
But all that crushed and crumpled
All because a new thought
Far too great too good came along
And now i'm not more than a line in your book

A word with no meaning
A sentence too broken
A sad unwanted situation
A phrase meant to be omitted
Dishearted
A line that is not related
That a full stop is more meaningful
A line too meaningless
Useless

And i'm not more than a line in your book

Where Are You

2006-11-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

Your promises are just empty promises
Said you will always be there (for me...)
said you wouldn't leave me (But you fuckin' did!)

We were once close, all of us three
The carnival, i wrote your name on your hand
Almost everywhere together we'd be

We met at the station almost every mornin
The zig zag as we walked the roads
Slowly walked the daily routine
Till finally we reached the canteen

Nick was myst
Where are you now
Have you just removed me from your friends list
Well maybe true it is

Where are you when i need you!?
Where are you when i was in deep shit!?
Where are you after you found new friends!?
........
.........Where are you when i miss you...?

It was hard at first
It was painful at heart
Suicide was on the mind
Time had frozen and brought me back
Back to the past

She helped me
To meet her there in the morn
She helped me
And her too to realise what friends really are
And that was biggie

loved her Then
...And still do now.

He was there...
As the clouds that overwhelm
And she didn't bring an umbrella
Slippery so she slipped and fell
And maybe it's still raining
And its not possible for me
to bring that umbrella

..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
We used to be together
All three of us
Was four later
And Back three
Left two
Now vanished

What's Love

2006-09-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

To love it means to hate
To care it means to hurt
To see someone else's tears makes me happy
The more joy that comes to see you suffer terribly

i loveyou dear
So hate you i must
I'll hurt your feelings and bring you fear
All these cause i care and i shall soon see ypur tears

Cry bitch cry
And this is what friends are for
I'll always be here when you need me
When you got problems just tell me
i'll make sure your problems get worse and make sure u suffer
And all these because i care.

.::[ www.fizice.net.ms ]::.

Too Often

2006-07-19T09:16:00.000+08:00

Too oftenWe take things for granted
We became selfish And do things as we wanted

We come to think of them only when the're gone
Things we wanna say to them, but itz already too late

Such a simple word like sorry
Means a big thing
Such a simple act like smiling
Can change someone's feelings

We look for them when we got hit with shit
But do we put our heart in helping them when they're in need

Too often we do things to our own desire
They lie to us and we're feel with ire
Labelling them as liars not realising we're also liars

Too often
We act according to our emotions
How we feel inside
And that's how it is outside

We neglect those around us when we're moody
Givin' lame reasons that the day was shitty
When we stop to think, how selfish can we really be
Blastin them off when they're in need

Too often
Just too often...

Loneliness that surrounds

2006-06-20T19:43:00.000+08:00

Sat around lookin
At the four walls of his room thinkin
Where is daddy?
daddy where is he mummy?
His daddy was long gone since he was a kid
Gone before he entered primary
Mummy had to work so he's left alone
Least he got a bro but still he was lonely
His childhood was not to be
He's unhappy
He doesn't have friends to play wit
He's lonely
He was left set to play by himself in kindergarten
While all kids play together in the playground
It's been a few years since he celebrated his birth.
It's been a long time since he found love.
A child,
celebrates his birth by himself
With the teddybears somewhat he took as friends
As he doesn't have a friend.
Not one cuz none gives a damn.
Set alone all his problems since young kept bottled.
They piled up till he reach sec3.
thatz when he finally found a homie
Someone gave him hope and lighten his dark world
But he's still lonely.
He's still sad and depressed
He doesnt have a childhood..
No one noes...
How did he celebrate his birthday...
Took a bread decorate it wit chocolates..
Pretended it was a cake for his birthday..
Sat alone in the dark kept askin
What are friends he doesnt noe the true meanin
And each time he made friends the backstabbed him set him thinkin
So can each ass be trusted.....?
Are everyone so cruel....?
Can i have friends.......?

Just some....
some of his life stories that he cant forget...
A childhood without friends..
without a father...
without someone he could tell his problems to..
Till he was 15...
Thats 15 years of loneliness..

To biggie,mystiqa and those who made me realise the meanin of friendship, made me start to trust people..

A big thank you..

But deep down..

There's still a kid..

tryin to get free...

still lookin..

for a long lost childhood.......

2006-05-30T15:40:00.000+08:00

Berabad telah kita bercinta
Mengapa kini engkau berubah
Sedangkan aku masih kekal setia
Mengharap kasih menjadi bintang jiwa
Mana janjimu akan setia
Menyayangi ku siang malammu
Melindungi dari bara sengsara
Mempertahankan mahligai bersama
Kini tiada erti memberi janji
Janji manis mu dulu
Hingga jadi api membakar dada ini ( 1 )

Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Tergamak kau berpaling dan teguh memilih dia
Semenjak hatimu dicuri jelita ( 2 )

Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Seandainya ada lagi cinta di hati ini
Akan kubenamkan sepi hanya selamanya
Semalaman di cermin kenangan
Jari berdarah diretak setia
Menanggung luka di sebalik senyuman
Hanya kerana aku seorang wanita
Lemah dunia halanya
Hati kecewa dengan janji manismu
Kini jadi api membakar dada ini

2005-07-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

Yo ma fuckin name's Fizice
To all the fuckin liars i hate lies
Shit in school i'm fly
although i'm juz a simple guy

I live in s'pore but still aint noe wad i'm here for
I hate ma art teacher maybe she's supposed to be dissed
Now she's added to ma list of beef
Mayb i should stel frm her sum cheeze
Well she's a bizzle fo shizzle

Man what tha dilly yo?
Always see those fuckin 5-0

Well i juz got too much problems i can go 730
Ma fuse been hot 4 so long anytime it can blow

2005-06-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

Me @ South View LRT station ard 7

2005-06-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hell yeah tatz me...

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2000-12-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

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